so, today we have our yearly review. I don't think I've been any more scared in my life, this is the last point they can sack me without any notice. I think they would give me notice anyway because they wouldnt want to see me that fucked, but I definately feel its 50/50 whether I come back from the review or not.
Some would be working their asses off now to see what they could do to save the situation, but I feel like that would be basically rubbing it into their faces that I can work hard but dont. So instead I will save my review situation but telling them that they need to support me a little more like they always said they would during interviews, training, and day to day work.
Still, theres not a lot I can do now, so its a "wait and see" situation, I'm sure I'll let you know...
In other news, Chris came round last night with his thougherly incredibly annoyingly northern girlfriend Tracy, who isnt actually all that bad. We got fairly drunk, or at least I did! My mirror fell down which isnt too great, but it didnt smash so thats ok. My dad brought round a cool bit of art based on the film "Get Carter", which I havent seen but need to 
It looks cool and will look even better when its on the wall.
In other other news, no bank or financial institution will give me money 
I've applied for loans, overdrafts, credit cards and the like and they all give me a resounding NO. Which is gash. Its rather degrading when it gets to the point you're pretty much going to have to beg someone to get a loan out for you and then pay them the payments... I never thought it would come to this.
I hope everyone is having a good day
x
